Wednesday, March 08, 2006
TUESDAY-------Just a phrase to summarise the main thing of today---> Friends don't seem like friends at times... They came forward to ask me what happen and try to make me happy... did i expect that it would be them? NO! they weren't mine closest friends and they are the ones who came forward... And you know how i felt? disappointed is the most suitable word... i did not tell anyone what happen to me but i think she knows... if you know wat happen, then you would understand how i'm trying to say...
i feel inferior compared to the 3 of you... you guys managed to do it and i can't after trying twice... i was so sad and it looks like none of you noticed that... you 3 were like so so happily talking together and totally ignored me(you might not have noticed)... and this is not the first time... being totally ignored by friends is like being outcast... this feeling is unbearable... i HATE it!!! yes, you might be thinking why didn't i join in the chat...
i'm the kind person that if you ignore me., i will not take the initiative to join in... tat's me... i have always thought that you are the one that i can totally confide in... but it looks like it is not true anymore... you have him and it's hard for me to confide in you... i did not want to disturb you... the only person so far that i can confide in is my sec sch best friend... we had the same likes and perhaps we are both single, many things are easier for me to tell her... 6 years of friendship bonded us closely... my sec sch clique always remember my birthday... every single one of them... They either send me messages of birthday greetings or presents...
And in JC, only you and him remembered... i appreciate that... sometimes JC friends remind me that i should have worked harder for O levels and go PJC with my best friend and would not have landed in this stupid place that i am in now...
I'm crying quietly but who knows???
[[2:40 PM]] _I'm so addicted to you__
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